I'm so tired!!!

I've been housesitting at nighttime this week and during the day I've been babysitting Caden. He is SO BAD. You just don't understand. This job isn't worth $100 anymore. At first I thought he was an angel cause that's exactly what he acted like. But now I see why..... This job is getting old and fast. I wish I could go back to school and just forget about all of this here. But at school I have hypocritic B words just waiting for me to look at them the wrong way so they can say something and then me beat the crap out of them. I want Tonya to try and hit me SO bad cause that's all it would take to unleash the anger that's been building up inside of me all summer long. God, I sound crazy but you would just have to know Tonya. I'm getting this feeling more and more often especially after what she did to Lindsey. Even Lauren has turned against us. And by that I mean Lindsey. I feel like such a bad friend for ignoring Amber's calls but I can't stay with her and I don't know how to explain that to her. She even went so far as to call my dad's cell phone(which I don't even know how she got his number) but it's getting old and I'm freakin sick of it. Pretty soon summer will be over and we'll all be back at school together and all hell will break loose. I just wish that she would go away really. And it really makes me mad that she has like all my expensive stuff. I should have learned my lesson when I saw her and Ashlie(Alex's baby mama) stop being friends last year and her still having like all of her stuff. I will pass on the word if she keeps on doing like she's doing. Oh well, the baby's calling. I get back on after I talk to Amber--ha ha I might never get back on. JK.....my parents will probably make me call her sooner or later. Probably sometime next week if I don't get to it tonight. bye.

Another week done and over with!!!

This week has been crazy. Everyone has been harrasing me and annoying me to death! Me and my mom have got in like 10 fights about stupid stuff for a week now, and Caden is getting too used to me so now he's starting to act like a bratt. Amber called me today and I had to lie to her and tell her I was grounded cause I'm just not telling her that her aunt is the reason I can't come over there. I mean, how do you say that to someone?? Idk...but I can't. Me and Lindsey are getting closer and closer cause all the people around us are just pissin us off and leavin us friendless. It's the same way with Oj. We're gettin closer to her too. I guess the summer just tears people apart this year, normally it brings people closer together. Everybody has been breakin-up, movin on, makin new friends, and crossin friends they've had since kindergarten off their friend list. It's some crazy sh*t. Oh yeah, Lindsey thinks that Keith likes me and I'm so excited!!! It would be perfect for me to date him cause Lane is fixin to start datin his twin brother, Kevin, and Lindsey is their first cousin. So, all me and Lane have to do is go stay the night with Lindsey and party till we pass out!!! Hmmm...idk...maybe I should forget about guys cause Keith had the option to date me all year and he never took the chance or time. I mean, at times he seemed close to it, like when we were in art class and he asked me if I would date him. I said--no, you're a man horror Keith

Finally!!!!!

Well, yesterday was my first day off and Caden didn't come until 11 this morning. At least she picked him up early this afternoon. And I have $347 and I would have like $5oo but I just can't seem to keep money in my pocket. So, I talked to Lindsey, the red-head on my profile picture, until like 1 in the morning. It was crazy!!! We talked for 6 hours cause we'd been on the phone since 8 that night. We had alot of catchin up to do though. I still haven't talked to Amber or Oj and I think Amber is pretty ticked off about me not bein able to stay with her anymore, even though she doesn't know that it's offical. She just thinks I'm too busy for her but I make time for my other friends. Idk...she's the type of friend that wants her best friend to be her only friend and for her only friend to have one friend, her. So that just p*sses her off alot! I haven't talked to Ashtin or anybody but I'm kinda glad cause I think the guy I've been goin after for this whole year(on and off and even when I do have a boyfriend)likes me. Cause he is first cousins with Lindsey and he told Lindsey after she got off the phone with me one day that anytime she wanted him to bring her to my house he'd bring her. She was just kiddin around and was like what if you're busy?? And then he said I'll make the time. So, I offically think that I may have a boyfriend if I ever make it around to staying with Lindsey at her house. That excites me but I know that no matter how happy I am in a relationship, every time I get kinda personal with him, it will always remind me of my ex that's a dad. It's okay though, cause I wouldn't trade one second of it for any new relationship that made me 10x more happy. But that's me cause I really think I helped him through a tough time in his life and helped him realize what a B word the girl he knocked up is. Oh well, we can't change the past and it doesn't help to think about it. But I'm just sayin, I wouldn't trade those moments for anything. And I would prolly be the happiest I could be if I got to date Keith, and in time who knows?? Maybe I would forget all about Alex, but I don't think so. I'm sure that once every person has been with another one and things just click they never forget the person that made them so happy. I hope I'm helpin somebody, because I'm not helpin me. Byes, goin to check out the ice cream sit-ye-ation. ;)

Whew

I spent the whole day babysitting again. It's been like this all summer long. I barely ever get a day for myself. Maybe I should just tell them that I can't babysit on Fridays. BUT...it is part of my job, so I guess that would be a good way to be out of a job next summer. Idk, I just want some time to myself so I can start hangin out with my friends again. I haven't talked to Lindsey or Oj or Amber in over a week and I have talked to any other guys this summer besides Ashtin and Nui. And the only reason I talked to Nui was because he went with me, Lindsey, and Oj to the movies(my parents still don't know about that one). Hmmm....idk what to do. At least I have tomorrow off. I think, unless BB decides to bring him at like 12 in the day. Oh well its whatever I'm sick of worring about it. It will be fine and I think I'll call Lindsey right now and see what she's doing tonight cause I'm sick of sitting around here. Bye

Whew...when did it get so hot??

Well, I spent the day at my little brother's baseball tournament and I felt like I was going to die in the heat!!! It is soooo hot from 11 to 4 here. Ugghhh. Anyways, I'm bored again and feel like going out and partyin or somethin, but I have church tomorrow and I'm not askin OJ to bring me home at like 7:30 in the mornin again. Her and Lindsay might still be at the rodeo they went to yesterday. I want to say she said it ended tonight, so I wouldn't be able to stay with her anyways. The biggest thing on my mind though is Amber, the friend I can't stay the night with anymore cause of her aunt talkin to her baby like its trash, and the fact that she has my ipod and jacket, about 4 expensive shirts, gym shorts, dressy shirts(also expensive), all the things that go to my ipod, and about 4 pairs of flip-flops, and pajama pants that I wore over there. So I'm pretty much screwed on that end of the deal cause my parents aren't gonna let up untill Stephanie moves out of the house and that's not gonna happen with her havin two babies, no job, and a loser boyfriend that keeps getting her prego. ;) The second thing is my drivers permit. I can go in one month and take the test but I'm not sure about the new law that's supposed to be coming into effect sometime soon. It would keep me from either gettin my permit or makin me keep it for 6 more months. So....I have alot to think about. I think I go think about all this right now. Bye.....=]

Bored...

I'm so bored right now. I've been sitting here at my computer for about 2 hours now just checkin up on my email accounts and blogs and things like that and I just now had time to check this one. Honestly, I'm ready to go back to school if things keep on going like this around my house. I have a babysitting job this summer and I've had to work every day this week except Wednesday. My other cousins were here yesterday and fussin bout everything I did and wanted to know why the baby was still asleep. I was cause I put him to sleep early so ya'll could come over and chat with me. They spazzed out and syco when I told them that. I was really ready for them to leave about that time! Hmm...well I have nothing to do this weekend cause I'm not allowed to stay the night with my best friend ever again. It really pisses me off cause it's all her aun't fault. One of my dad's friends was over at her house helpin her dad fix his truck and her and her aunt were on the porch. She has two babies and the toddler was climbin down the steps so she called him a stupid little m f'er. That's what I heard at least cause my dad came stormin in from Mr. Rosco's house where he hangs out with all his buddies tellin me what happened and why I was never leavin the house with Stephanie, her aunt, again. I think think it's a bunch of bull crap but its whatever I guess. And on top of that, she hasn't called in forever and the day after he tells me this she calls wantin me to come stay with her. She had it all planned out too. Garth and Cody were going to come pick us up and bring us to the rodeo so we could see them ride.(They're bull riders.) And the thing is, she needs me now. And all this crap had to happen. Her and her boyfriend just broke up after 5 months and she needs a friend. And if it was me, I would want my best friend too. Anyways, I have to go. Byes!!!!

Well...that was pointless.

Guess what? After me and Ashtin had been datin for about two weeks I broke-up with him. I was over at my friend, OJ's, and I asked my friend Lindsey if she would txt him and be like hey this is emily. Well, we got to txtin and I dumped him and I couldn't feel better right now except the fact that now I don't have a boyfriend and I think I ticked him off and hurt his feelings on top of that. Anyways though, have to go...... I'll make sure to write more often. =]